I\’m all in.
I have a growing, unshakable belief in the work we are doing. And so does everyone in this house I think!
Tonight as he was coloring, our 4-year old William said, \”Mom, when we die can we hold hands so we can still be together?\”
It\’s possible that I said that when I was 4 too and no one wrote it down, but this guy seems different, maybe because I\’m different.
As far as I know, William knows about death from bugs dying and other such situations. We have not had any personal deaths close to him.
These kids get it in a way that we all forgot. I\’m not going anywhere.
And my dream board: I realized everything is coming true! Even the bug vacuum that my daughter Agnes cut out and put on the board along with some items they all wanted for Christmas. Why in the world would she cut that out last October as we started this class and insist that we put it on the board?
Well, don\’t you know it, but since we moved to the new house, we have an Asian Lady Beetle situation inside (we thought they were good luck Lady Bugs, but are in fact a similar-looking, but biting, beetle) and I have been using our Makita hand held vac to help reduce the situation. I\’ve been using the vac for at least 10 days now, but just realized yesterday that it\’s a manifestation of the dream board!
And one more: my husband was heading back to the city yesterday for an overnight work trip; we were talking about the tools for expanding–his key is unworthiness; mine is fear. I was telling him that if the structure of his old job isn\’t comfortable (he\’s keeping it in a new model of remote work), then let go of the banana! Otherwise, he\’s delaying manifestation of his new work life which is why I now think we made this move.
But I TRUST HIM–known him since 1993, married in 2002, made the decision that I truly trusted him in 2011, as I was driving our new baby Agnes home from the City where he was working for a week. As I heading back to our home in PA, I realized I trusted him and if he wanted us to move to NYC, we would. And we did in August 2011, Agnes was not 1-year-old yet! To everyone, including my niece who just found out she\’s pregnant but wants to keep working to keep her options open, I have been saying: you can\’t base what you want on the available methods. First go wild with the vision of what you want most, design it yourself, the methods will show up later.
As we are on the phone as he\’s driving down the Palisades Parkway on Wednesday this week and I\’m ranting on about ignoring available methods as there are so many ways to make oodles of money and impact the world, I see a missed call from my friend Vanessa. I return her call to find out I\’m being offered a prestigious spot at a new company she\’s working for.
I\’m done worrying for the day. Things are working out better than I dreamed.